FeelING dowNNNNN

Hi ppl...
I'm feelin so nt important to all my friends out there...
dunno... they jus gave mi this feelin... veri good huh... mayb i think too much, but i'm jus veri hurt by them lo...
ok... this is wat happen... most recent issue...
zhi and mine birthday is veri near to each others... this year they intend to celebrate our birthday together...
anyway... they bought a present for zhi... which cost $550... and ask if i wan to give a bigger share... which is 100... hello... my birthday is also round the corners wor... can u all feel how i feel?
ok... at first... i'm angry... y is there such a nd for them to spend so much on her present... i think a lot... so much so tt i finally came to this tot...
how abt my present leh... since they spend so much on her present... meanin my one wun spend too much de lo...
askin mi to share a bigger share? hello... hav anyone think abt how i feel? i'm another birthday ger leh... how can u all be so unfair?
nvm...
100 ma... i still can afford la... thinkin their family situlation and their fancial problem... 100 i still can afford la... jus give and scold them a bit and put this matter away liao lo...
no... now they jus tell mi... oh... we decided liao... u will pay like the rest 50 will do... den the rest we will pay...
omg... here i'm worried for u all there u all are tellin mi this...
wat am i to u? whe do i stand... we are friends isnt it? no... i feel so left out...
den tomoro celebrate how... wan mi to open the present infront of u all ma? open liao... how shld i react...
ask them y so much different? or pretend to like it a lot and happily cont the nex activities?
i realli hav no idea how shld i react for tomoro...
told the bdae ger... abt this... we are veri close la...
she wan mi to think in her shoes... do u think there is such nd ma... all she nd to do is happily go there pretend dunno anything... den happily receive the present... open and ask them y spend so much? if she wan to reject also can... scold them also can... she has the every rite...
jus this simple... ask her to think for mi instead... jus drop mi a i think i'm nt goin tomoro...
wat the hack is this? y jus cant anyone spare a tot for mi... i realli dun understand..

i feel so so so so so so so so sooooooooooooo hurt today...